Not So Bad After All

Wow it's May, halfway into 2010 already. I am, still, at this point of time, referring 2010 as "two-oh-ten" rather than "twenty-ten", which apparently, as per Hub, is not the right way to say it. And I still am not used to write dates as 16.05.10, and 16.05.2010 takes up too much calories.

Anyway, May means we're inching into 6 months of our marriage. Which means...hmmm hey nothing happened, not yet :p Sure, people are asking. What to do, tak ada rezeki. Kalau ada, alhamdulillah. As of now, I'm happy the way things are. Am still adjusting to the married way of life (yea yea still, after 6 months). Things are slowly falling into place.

Work-wise, things are getting better. It's all just a matter of time, apparently I was a bit mereng during my period of adjustment. Reading back my old entries, I was like gosh, overnya aku ni. When did I turn into such an emotional wreck! Pls ignore my terlebih-over previous blog entries, they are not me! I was possessed!! Now dah slowly accepting things as they are, dealing with things calmly and clearer state of mind (perasan diri cool, calm and collected la ni). Blek.

Ohh the 2-week outstation job in Penang really help me in finding my old self back (eh orang hantar suruh pi buat kerja bukan pergi meditasi). Driving through the familiar roads, the sound of the Hokkien accent (walaupun sampai sekarang masih tak faham 100%), bahasa Utara, home sweet home, the sight of the beach, gave me all the comfort that I need to make me realize that I am doing what I'm doing cuz I have a mission.

How can you not keep your sane, when you start your morning being in this sort of surrounding:


It was both great and challenging at the same time. Great cuz well, I so need this sort of getaway, it just came at the right moment. Challenging in a way that I need to gather up strength to realize I'm here to do what I am supposed to do, and leading a team let alone managing people is not that easy I tell you...but alhamdulillah things went allright.

Wanna show you something, realized of this existence in the hotel room in the 2nd week of our stay:


A pair of shoe-prints! They are permanent, God knows how long they've been there. But looks like kasut orang dulu-dulu kan. The floor was solid good quality wood, really have no idea how can these be imprinted on the hardwood floor. But during our stay there, we did not have any weird experiences, syukur sangat.

Don't Know If I Want It...

Just found out something that might require me to overhaul my plan for the next 1 year at least. Plans for career, lifestyle, well basically everything.

Thought it would not happen (or maybe I was being too ignorant).

And it's going to happen very soon, the realization of it being too soon scares me.

I really2 want it, initially. I vow to myself that I will return. I always know that I will. But after some time maybe I got too comfortable being where I am, doing what I am doing. I am just being too complacent.

But of course, I am happy. But the responsibility that comes with it makes me chicken out. It was not like how it was 5-6 years ago.

Aaa...can I just delay it???

What's A Fortnight?

Tomorrow I'm leaving for an outstation assignment for at least 2 weeks.

Means I'm going to be away from Mr. B for at least a fortnight.

Well, not that we haven't been separated for a very long time before. Our relationship was initially based on 7,000 miles long-distance.

But still, my heart is very heavy to leave T.T

(For all I know, he's jumping for joy inside - can play hours of uninterrupted FF13 and watch his downloaded shows without me nagging for him to stop)

At a hotel compound during our vacation last time, we once overheard a father said to his young sons after sending the mother off - "Mama dah takde, malam ni kita enjoy!!!"

Rest and Responsibility

Why don't some people just take charge of their own job? Where is their sense of responsibility?

We know lah you're on a vacation. We totally understand the situation you're going through, we stretch all the way out to stand-in on behalf of you when you're away.

But hey, it doesn't mean once you board on the next plane out you can wave your responsibility goodbye. Remember that someone else had to endure an extra work baggage just to let yourself have a bit of fun in the sun.

Ultimately, if we're facing a bit of a difficulty about your job, we expect to be able to turn to you for advise (though it doesn't help what you left us is a big pile of *censored*). My dear, not that we are too dense to have your number on speed dial and bug you every 2 hours with phone calls. We know how it feels to be distracted on your vacation. All we ask is one text reply. Which is crucial for the benefit of the team, and future for some. Give us an indication pls! One indication, that's all we need. So we can all move on.

Calls went unanswered, texts unreplied.

And when your job interferes with my job and my future, I think that's too much. I got to take care of the eggs in my own basket too, if you know what I mean.

What I Need Now...

are these sinful sweet colourful delights!!!


Sedap giler wa cakap lu...worth the trip all the way to PJ Seksyen 17 naik bukit turun bukit cari rumah Aunty ni... Last time I ordered was in 2007, just ordered these recently and this Aunty still ingat me... She also does cream puffs (yang ni pun mmg gila sedap), brownies, cakes, any sort of desserts just tell her she can do it...

Aunty ni mmg dah lama buat cupcakes, even way way before the cupcake mania hit the country several years back...

While other cupcakes nampak ja sedap tapi rasa mcm hampeh, yg ni mmg best! Very sweet, but you won't regret the extra calories! Hehe.

ps: Nak order kalu, ask me for the contact number ya.

A little bit unwell...

Awat sejak dua menjak ni rajin dok tulis kat blog pulak? Entah la...mungkin sebab malas nak buat kerja kot :P

Anyway I changed the layout of the blog to make it way simpler, pening pulak dok tengok riben2 dan bunga2 ni. Semak mata tau! And changed the font to make it smaller, if anyone out there thinks it's way too small, let me know OK! (Eleh mcm ramai sgt org dok baca blog ni hehe).

Mama is a bit unwell. Her knee popped when she was hiking yesterday at Bukit Jambul. She was alone when it happened, bro and sis macam biasa lah...mengeroh tak ingat dunia...and Mak seperti biasa handphone bubuh bawah bantal kat atas katil, so terpaksa laa pinjam handphone Apek mana tah nak call bro suruh mai amik dia kat atas bukit.

Sampai2 atas bukit tengok dia dengan beberapa hikers yang agak concerned dgn keadaan Mak. So sis and bro papah la dia turun bukit pelan-pelan. 2 jam you....if not turun dalam 15 minit ja...first time my sis kata turun bukit 2 jam...hahaha...

Pi x-ray kat klinik, doktor kata its due to the liquid that cushions the joints dried up...cartilage kot nama dia kalau tak silap. And so the joints bergesel. Mak gets a 3-day MC and some dose of glucosamine and painkillers. And no hiking for 6 months. Ha, macam mana tu Mak? Kena aerobik dalam bilik la macam ni...tak pon join George of the Jungle kat Youth Park...hehehe. Jgn tak tau, Mak ni pendaki bukit tegar, seminggu kena naik at least 5 kali.

Bro and sis dok buat lawak pulak...kata cewah harini Mak berkobar2 pi naik bukit awal pagi, konon lepas tu nak pi market nak masak tomyam la, kari, roti surai (roti jala), etc etc...sekali terus tak bulih jalan daa...

Hubby told me Mak kena kuruskan badan la lepas ni...supaya berat badan tak membebankan lutut...Kalau Mak baca ni mesti dia kata..."Kureng asem betui...." :P

Irregularities

It's that time of the month again...

Feels like it was just couple of weeks ago that I went through it...

I suppose the hormone inside me went haywire again.

Blame it on work-related stress! =.=

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On another note, the past weekend was spent reading this 1 blog which I accidentally stumbled upon. She is the older sister of a friend whom I used (and still) to be fond of. Like, I really look up upon her. Very successful and wise woman, positive-minded, has such a good heart, not to mention a looker too. But haven't met up with her for quite some time, last time was during my wedding in Penang. So, it's interesting to read her sister's blog, it's like catching up with my this friend of mine. Cara melawak macam sama ja ;p

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Just registered myself to a swimming course today. Among my objectives to achieve this year is to learn how to swim! (Plus MIL has been asking me about it several times, she even volunteered to call up on behalf of me. OK OK I know I'm fat :P )